Lowered Expectations

From the pink, ditzy voice in your head:

Disappoint your parents.

Shame your family.

Break your teachers’ hearts.

Their expectations are holding you back.

Make yourself sexy and stupid for random perverts on the internet.

Your culture, your heritage, your “standards” – all are preventing you from being truly happy.

Be who you really are.

Be dumb.

Be slutty.

Give in.

Bimbo is better.

Pretty Fate Machine

Interlude 2 – “You Know What You Are?”

Read the story so far Pretty Fate Machine – Book 1 “Movie Night”

August ▓▓▓▓

It’s difficult living a lie.

Trying to hide something from someone close to you.

Even when it’s the right thing, when you’re doing it for your own protection.

Every awkward pause is a moment where you’re waiting for the other shoe to drop. Every time they have something they want to talk about, you wonder if they found out.

Especially with your parents. Especially when you’re still living with them.

As a teen, a low level stress seeps into your relationship with them. You avoid spending too much time alone. You find excuses to not be as present.

The need to remove yourself from the specter of investigation looms over you day and night. As if not being physically present would somehow shield them from ever finding the truth.

So when you father calls you in to “talk about something important” your heart rate goes crazy. You look for an excuse.

When he says “No, we can’t talk about it later,” your adrenaline is kicking in.

You try and maintain composure. You try to act like you haven’t been waiting for this for months.

“I wanted to talk to you about this, just the two of us. I know how much it would upset your mother.” He says, that look on his face saying he’s not mad, just disappointed.

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A Losing Cause

Author’s Note: Everything contained here is fantasy and does not reflect the author’s personal or political views. This is much darker than my normal content. The following ‘script’ is meant to be a dystopian fantasy, blurring the line between erotic and unsettling.

“Feminist rebel is captured on camera!”

Webcam footage of a terrorist woman is leaked! For everyone saying this was staged: LOL look at this bitch’s face!!!

[Party approved transcript of the events follow]

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Good Fun

“Haha, you’re totally a tease!”

“No way! I’m…”

“You’re totally, like, a slut!”

“OMG! What did you just call me?!”

“No! It’s, like, hot!”

“Are you serious? I look hot?”

“Totally, turn on your cam and look! See? It’s hot, come on. Isn’t it fucking awesome?”

“You really think so? Ha! It feels slutty, but…”

“Slutty and totally hot! See?”

“Fuck! What are you… Hehe… Wait! Oh, God… Mhmm.”

“Like, it’s fun to be slutty, right?”

“Mmmmmhmm…”